to healman

yep. love is blind..
i can prove it
i know it
n i feel it
i know that love is blind
i learn lots of things from love,
friends who in love,
i've learnt from them too
yeah. people outside there
come and see me f2f
i can tell u that love is blind
one of the evidence is here
read the under.

aku mahu..

jgn tunjuk kau lemah

aku benci semua tu

kerana itu bkn kau yg aku kenal

aku x boleh jd pelindung kau selalu

kerana suatu hari aku mungkin sudah tiada di dunia ini

aku mahu kau tahu

aku mahu kau berdiri di atas kaki mu sndiri

ya. semesti nya tanpa aku semata-mata

aku mahu kau tahu

aku cintakan kau lebih dari diri ku sendiri

aku mahu yg terbaik utk kau

aku sgt perlukan kata2 lembut dari mu

di buai dgn mimpi2 mu

di manja dengan sentuhan mu

ya. aku kurang semua itu

perlukah aku tunjukkan caranya?

adakah kau tahu?

pengorbanan ku tidak mampu kau balas?

ya. aku bongkak

tapi adakah kau tahu

aku kecewa

ya. aku sgt kecewa dgn kau..

maafkan aku..

aku mungkin gagal menjaga kau

aku semakin lemah..

tolonglah aku..

aku tak mahu semua ini..

seandainya aku tidak membuka mataku lagi

aku mahu kau tahu

aku mahu lihat seorang KAU yg aku mahukan......

hot pics of the week

hehehe.. will update the pics tomorrow ;p

selamat pagi..

bangun dengan riang.. menyanyii

menari bersama, ayuh!

hee.. good morning jue

i'm feeling like a real goat

sejukkk!

nk gosok gg je.

oh i smell nasi kerabu..

i'm coming to u!

lalala~

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happy giler dpt tuka new layout yg sgt cute ni.

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y i chose black?

coz i can add any colorful texts on my entries.

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touched

at my first time. i felt pity to the snatch thief. yes. we might not know what was their purpose on doing that. for us, if they were so called snatch thief, they were drug addict, or a group of unporpose people, or whatever. but have we think that they doing that because they were desperate or something? yes again. i've read about them in the newspaper in the last few days. a snatch thief kantoi, then kena belasah by people around. while hit by them, he'd begging, saying that, "tolong cik, sy nk beli susu ank sy. die lapar.. tolong..".. even if it's a lie, i still feel.. oh so poor.. how if it was true?

when think back, hey, u dah xde care lain ke nak cari duit? u ade tulang 4 kerat, kerja la! meragut boleh plak. but then, i still have the feeling of, kesian nyee.. ye la. he's willing to do anything, even stealing for the sake of his baby. maybe he found that it is the easiest way to get money. ye laa.. ank nangis2 nak susu, nk keje, mau dah abes keje baru dpt duit. if i was there la, i'm free to give him money for the milk.. if i have the money. hee

again. duit duit duit.. is it possible to live without money? for sure, NO. hm.. lagi2 during nowadays. masuk toilet pon 20 sen ok. so, ade solution x for this snatch thief ek? i even got no idea lah.. maybe he could work, work and work. there's a lot of things he could do. and Tuhan itu Maha Pemurah..

and for us yg tgh bersenang-senang. planning is a must in our life. yes. what we want to do and what we want to be in the future. aim for it. go go youth nation! ;p

dislike kenduri kawin

mmg x suke g kenduri kawin.. especially with my parents.

1st, kene pakai baju kurung. have to iron the baju kurung, then lepas pakai nk kne basuh by hand plak. masuk washing mashine? no way la. nk kne bebel ngn umi? "baju punya la susah nk jd baju kurung. umi beli kain, pastu anta kat tailor, pastu kalau baju raye, labuci ctu labuci sini. nnt tertanggal la manik. x pon terkoyak. kain baju kurung kan halus" blablabla.. kalau ade bibik xpe la. n umi plak x penah ajar anak2 die anta baju g dry cleaning or dobi. haih..

2nd, plg malas g kenduri kawin yg tempat nye ntah pape. inconvenient la kowt. mcm if rumah kt kg, byk lopak air la. jln xde tar la. batu2 pasir2 la. byk lalat. aiyyaa.. mmg x suke! wan(my dad) tu ngan sume org die kawan. dr dato', wakil rakyat, penghulu, org kampung kito, haha.. sme lah. pastu time rilex2 kat umah, ade la die nk bgtau. "tgh hari ni g la makey gulai kt umah ^%$#".. wuarghh!! pastu nk basuh tgn, xde sabun. hish.. x berjiwa rakyat tul la saye ni.

3rd, ni lg satu. if ikot my parent g kenduri. mesti org2 berkenaan nk tanye. "ooo.. ni yg no brapo?".. "ooo.. x lamo doh tu nk makey nasi minyok". wahaha.. annoying ok. x pon. "eh2... besa doh ank awk. dulu jupo kecik lg". haha.. time ni la nk kene tertib. adooii..

td wan dah call2 ask me n umi to go to that such place. xtau la how's the place was like. but when denga je kenduri, my mind just flying to those 3 things. malas! at last, umi n wan je yg g. before umi g td, die ckp, " kak siap2 la nnt, umi blk nnt kite nk klua ni. umi nk g kedai pengantin, nk beli manik n labuci. nk jahit kt baju kurung." wahaha.. that's my mom. but yg tu i have the interest lah. sewing is one of my interest even ade sikit malas. as usual have to drive her there. me nk siap ni. till then! =)

my short journey. haha ;p

Di kala boredoom fades in, wuarrghh.. Sgt xtau nk watpe. Surfing the net? Boring laaaahh.. Dah penat ngadap benda alah ni, me jln2 dlm umah.

Umi holding baby aryan yg nangis2 lg, wan (my dad) ngadap laptop nya sambil belayar dlm internet.. Along n lil bro ipang in the kitchen masak2, coz diorg ber2 je yg nk makan. We all dah kenyang makan kt kenduri umah cik zu, jiran sbelah kul 6 td. Angah plak tgh siap2 nk kua ngn her friends.

TV kt tvroom membunyi ngan xde penonton nya. TV kat dapo nasib baik ade org nonton. Boring kan? Lalala~ After pusing satu lap dlm umah ni, i got back here ngadap benda alah ni lg, with a bar of vochelle almonds chocolate. Yummy~

I wanna do this survey..

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Have you ever __________with your top six???

Don’t change your Friendster top 6!

Answer the questions truthfully

1. Have you ever danced with number 2?
No

2. Where did you meet number 5?
At school in the same class. School rawks!

3. Have you ever gotten drunk with number 4?
No. We don't even drink.

4. Have you seen number 2 naked?
Haha.. Nope

5. Have you ever seen 5 in a swimsuit?
Tak jugak. But ever swim together in pool.

6. Do you like number 1?
So soo much.. I even in love with him =)

7. Have you ever met 4s Family?
Of course. Selalu. Hihi

8. Do you know 6s middle name?
She has no middle name. Suhaili la maybe. Siti Suhaili Yahya.

9. Have you ever eaten anything in front of 3?
Waaahh.. Selalu! xoxo akak~

10. Do you trust number 5?
So much

11. Have you ever fought with number 1?
Huh? Selalu jgk ;p

12. When’s the last time you talked to 3 in person?
6th November 2008. The day i got back to KB. Miss u akak~

13. Have you ever done something dangerous with number 1?
Yeap. In what term ek..? But i think we do have.

14. Have you ever slept in the same bed with number 5 ?
Yeah yeah.. Miss u jajaa..

15. Do you think 1 and 5 would make a good couple?
No way! We'r good friends since school. Ja on behalf me jd informer to amir. Uhuk

16. Would 3 do anything for you?
Will u akak? huuu.. Akak syg jue =)

17. Has 2 ever helped you out?
Yes time dulu2. Since we'r far, she had less time wit me.

18. Have you ever slept in the same bed as number 4?
Yer sy! Hee..

19. Which have you known the longest?
6. Since in primary school =)

20. Who have you known the shortest?
3. But she's my best sister ever. i syg u lebih akak..

21. Have you had a crush on 1-6?
Nope! I luv them all so very much.

22. Have you ever done anything illegal with number 4?
Haha.. Yeah! We love it! Hughug miss resa =)

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Hm.. Not fun enough. Yet. But i'm tagging everyone here. I'm gonna seek for a best time at a moment. Off

it's raining

monsoon season just begin.. rain rain n rain.. drain here and drain there.. cold inside and outside.. n i start to be passive n negative, body n mind. but i didn't sleep for 10 hours ++.. i know that i'm having a monsoon in me too. tried to pretend it all. spending time with everyone around me.. i'm not too fragile. i'm just trying my best here. fighting jue!

singing like nobody's listen

i loooovve singing. n luckily i got kinda good voice. so lagi la nk nyanyi! since i was in primary school lg ske mencapub nak nyanyi dpn audience ni. after a few ujibakat la kunun, i was the one yg kire nye bintang kecil skolah, ngn sorg lg my friend. haha.. riindu nye time tu. satu skolah gosip i ni gf cg ramzi (cikgu music handsome kt skolah zainab time tu). ade ke. kecik lg kot. haha.. ni la minded kanak2. igt blk rase klaka je. mase tu slalu jgk skip klas coz cg bwk merata. lalala~ but i was leaving the singing carrier when msk secondary school. skolah campur. malu laaa.. culture shock jgk nk perform dpn student laki. ops! tambah lagi my amir pon ade. oh tidaaak! time tu malu2 lg. heee.. *blushing

hm.. last week i've got an offer to perform during the wedding of my cousin, elin at riverview hotel, but then i refuse coz i had no preparation. afterall, i felt like i'm wasting the chance. umi said xde sape nyanyi best mlm tu. mcm main2 je. haha! but that's my principe. i'll do the best of me. mane boleh cincai2 je. jatuh standard kowwt. even sultan x attend the wedding pon, sy ttp akan rasa pelik. umi mmg, slalu nk sedap kan ati ku. "ala.. kakak nyanyi suke2 je.." hm.. die x faham. i have my own pride. nnt if main nyanyi je, suare salah tuning, diri sndr yg malu. aiyak.

before this dah penah face the xperience, during the wedding of a daughter of a well-known lawyer here (and one of his daughter tu pon my friend jgk), dgn sultan pon nengok, haih.. the technicion yg agak budus, die lupe turunkan 'key' for my song. cam nk klua anak tekak nyanyi. but luckily i still can recover it. tu dah siap rehearsel sme. duh.. nk nanges rase time tu. dah la ank lawyer tu my friend sme, and ajak plak her friend yg mmg my friends jgk. nasib la dpt respond positive. dlm ati xtau la diorg iklas ke x.. isk2..

the other performance i penah wat during the birthday of the sultan kelantan, sultan ismail petra, also wat kat riverview hotel jgk, yg ni plg best. this was 3 years ago. artist pon ade jgk.i still remember the day i only sing 1 single song from celine dion - my heart will go on. giler la. thought xleh bawak that killing song. but then try karaoke kt rumah, eh boleh ke? haha.. sronok rase. y i chose the song? coz umi said (umi as my manager), lagu tu lagu favourite tengku anis (raja permaisuri kelantan). so i sang the song lalala.. afterall, nk sembah hormat tuanku sme, siap tengku anis ckp, "sedap la soro.." (sedap la suara).. wah.. trus speechless. hish.. hm, byk lg if nk cter bout the other royal performance. nah.. just forget bout it.

hari keputeraan sultan kelantan 2006

as umi dah keje ngn government since 20 years ago, i always know bout the raja. ye la. kerja ngn raja. umi tu, ckit2 ade event psl raja. so since young i was like with them. not mean that they remember me. kecik2 dlu penah perform dancing twice with the daughter, tg amalin, hakim majistet sudaaah. n penah perform singing during her event (persidangan hakim n majistret malaysia) baru2 ni. haih.. perform la cmne pon, diorg still xkan igt kte. sy org biase je.

hm. pening nk perform2 ni. i prefer nyanyi sorg2 je dlm toilet. lg best. karaoke kt rumah pon lg sronok. boleh wat ikot suke ati. haa.. nyanyi depan cermin layan jgk. so moral nye, jgn perform lg depan audience. boring okay. but i'l keep singing like nobody's listen. kire nye syok sendiri la. huuhu.. poor my tubbies yg slalu tertadah tlinge denga me melalak kat bilik H2.4 tu. sory sgt ngn u guys. jue cube la kay x melalak sgt nnt. huahua.. da ngantok. hope tomorrow i'l wake up, dpt suare best mcm siti nurhaliza or mariah carey or celine dion.. (owh if it turn to real..) zZZzZ~

keboringan~

wuarghh.. keboringan, but sooo tired. jage baby aryan yg lately da xnak tido. nk maaaiin je. haha.. but i like it. cubit pipi diye yg mcm apple tu, ngn dimple nye. n then time tdo ngigau2 sambil senyum. pastu ske bulatkan mulut die. he sniff n yawn pon ade bunyi ok. baby yg byk bunyi. if mandi, x penah nangis. hiaarrgghh.. he's the cutest baby la i've ever know. n thanx that he's my nephew. i can always hold him. my nephew ok. not other relatives. heee.. hm.. today is the first day he smile while playing with him. wuarghh.. sronok! tomorrow gonna be his 40 days old. jum baby. kte g mall. lalala~

since jage baby je, i have no other things to do other than surf the net. my plan to sketch class pon still pending coz umi said that the class kat kraf tangan vilage is no longer working. how? hm.. i wanted to do something valuable. kerja? owh tidak.. i'm not as free as ena.. hee.. best je ena kerja decorate ballons. fun fun fun! sy nak jgk!

i miss my hubby bear already.. my tubbies.. my room at asiah. my studio? hee.. a bit. studio kuuuu.. lalala~ akak, rase nye entri ni keboringan la. baik jgn bace lg. i'm not goin to finish this. tp nk delete syg plak. haha.. off off dan off lg.

sad love song

yeah.. the sad korean drama (sad love song) that i missed watching it once again. i'm so damn missing it. just now i search for it again, as fad told me bout the web that provide korean/japanese movie. n i found the drama! susah kot nk cari citer ni. it was once played at TV2 in 2006 i guess. the drama was so soo damn touching me. and it affect me till present. why not, i always x forget bout it. before, used to download the videos at youtube n looking for the song via internet (dlu gne ares destiny).. hiaaa.. i guess ade few of u guys yg follow this drama dlu kan kan? hm.. sedey sedey sedey.. love the journey of the story, telling bout friendship, love and music. i'm craving for the drama! even kat video store pon x jual citer ni. if ade pon, subtitle mandarin. how how how.. rindu sgt2..

coz of this drama, me admire the hero citer ni, kwon sang wo tu. ala.. duta the face shop tu. but yg x puas ati nye, ade ke die penah blakon jd org bodoh dlm 'my tutor friend'. haha.. but still, he xpose his handsomeness dlm 'love is divine'. hehehe.. but but but, he's the coolest actor ever! x caye tgk la drama 'sad love song' ni. the most unfair was that he died at the end of the story. sob sob sob.. :(( i was touched again.. hm.. where do i find this drama ek? i mean as my personal collection. watch this drama coz it'll surely touch u deep inside, dgn 'gangguan' lagu2 nya yg menyentuh kalbu. isk2.. http://www.mysoju.com/sad-love-song/ <--nieh

*sad love song also known as 'sad love story' or 'sad sonata'. byk version.

best fb's application ever!

omg! i'm so addicted to this application. i think the best application ever from facebook. heee.. it's pet society. for those who got account of facebook, seriously, i suggest u all try this application, called 'pet society'. especially for those who ever love to play the sims. here u go, the cute the sims, 'pet society'. hihihi.. try it! and learn how to play it.

• allow the access to pet society
• name and stylize ur pet in the way u like (choosing the ear, color, mouth, eye, eyebrow style)
• then u can start playing!
• first of all, must drag the chair and the tv into ur house
• then u will be given the first award
• continue xploring with variety awards n surprise
• playing with ur pet, give food n wash it with soap
• decorate ur house using the coins u earns
• make friends, visit their house (earn coins and paw points)
• go to stadium to practice n race while betting (to earn coins and paw points)
• also u can walk through the tree to earn coins
• u can invite as many friends u got! =)

lia, akak, ena, mom, heal, am, u guys pon main la. heeee.. teruja ok ;p

my brother

my one n only lil brother hari ni

start one of the big xm of his future

its spm. n today is paper of bahasa melayu.

GOOD LUCK adk!

igt wut i've told u ok.

SPM is in ur hand.

n make us proud of u.

i know u can do it. fighting!

sad sad song

lagu baru yg best! huu... feel the song and the lyric. sedey.. uhuk~

Kehilangan dirimu
Menyakitkan nurani
Separuh nyawa terbawa
Menyisakan perih di hatiku

Baiknya semua kenangan yang terindah
Tak ku balut dengan tangis
Baiknya setiap kerinduan yang merajam
Tak kuratapi penuh penyesalan

Ku hanya terus berharap
Ini bukan kenyataan
Kau pergi tinggalkan dunia fana
Akhiri kisah asmara kita berdua

Baiknya semua kenangan yang terindah
Tak ku balut dengan tangis
Baiknya kulepaskan
S’gala kepedihan tuk merelakanmu

Benarkah semua ini terjadi
Betapa kumencintai dirimu
Ku tak kuasa menahan kesedihan
Yang begitu dalam



xoxo indonesian band :x

wishes to my tubbies =)

today my tubbies will have their final paper at 3 o'clock.

to akak, ena n mom.

all the best korang!!!

jwb xm elok2 okay

jgn mlayang plak igt nk hols.

huhu..

korg mesti bole!

hughug~

holiday ni

huu... best nye golek2 atas katil.. so, thinking about what to do during this long term hols. first of all for sure, spend my time terperuk dlm umah. n then main ngn baby aryan. wuargghh!! he's ssoo sooo cute! cuter than the pic i saw in earlier. hee.. n he's so funny. ade ke tdo time mandy? n that's him. haha.. i luv baby aryan so much~





my next plan gona be about sketch class. huu.. so i planned to go to kraf tangan village the next week. i used to that place before n i learnt using the watercolor there. drawing some cool picture that i'v keep it till now. maybe as my personal portfolio. uhuk. soo sleepy. i think about posting some facts but then so malas. later la. off

kb arrival

9am - woke up, after bear call. me tdo mati. siap2
9.30 am - akak bgn to send me to bus stop
10 am - naik bus rapid to putra gombak after waiting for cab yg x dtg2.
10.30 - tren to kl central
11 am - arrive kl central, rushing to kenny rogers. angah mengidam kenny rogers yg x wujud2 lg d kb ni. amek la korg 1 family set, bli sekor ayam trus!
11.30 am - took sky bus to lcct, tdoo, mengelamun
12.25 pm - arrive lcct
12.40 - check in n waiting for the plane kt dep. hall. try on9 tp x berjaya. wifi cam harem
1.30 pm - walk to the flight AK 6324 to kb
1.40 pm - fly to kb, tdo lg
2.30 pm - arrive at the Sultan Ismail Petra Airport KB, wan already waiting for my return there

......

but til now, x sampai2 umah lg.. lol.. da x saba nk cubit baby aryan ni.. uwaaa...!! just now lepak kt wan's ofis waiting for umi abes keje at 4.45 jap g. aaaaaaaa..

dudududu.. huhuh.. hohoho..

exam so-called relief

huhu.. finally! yay! this is the true feeling of going to have a long break. ye la kowt. hihihi.. just now had pack stuff n ni dah rilex2. but as usual, my rooms jd mcm tongkang pecah. the more i pack, the more i got into the mess. alalala..

best nyeee! nk blk main ngn baby aryan! hihihi.. td xm pon my mind not so into the hall actually. n i leave the hall 30 minutes earlier. coz kertas xm pon da penoh ngn essay of history yg merapu rapu tu.

so, mlm ni got to send the car to bear. wan pon suruh tinggal kat umah bear. sian kete tu nanti berhujan berpanas kt cni. so bear bole la take a look at it in the moment. huwarrgghh.. nk g the curve, nk beli baby aryan baju CK yg cool gle tu. hari tu run budget xle nk beli. but seems i might run out of time jgk. aiyoyo.. n esok got to leave the room around kul 10 kot or maybe earlier. uwaa.. blk sorg2. can somebody bring me to lcct? ala.. can la. please please.. huhu.. off