the age of marriage?

oh there's an issue that keeps bothering me. i just don't understand why my kind of batch is busy getting marry and all sorts of thing. baiklah. jodoh di tangan Tuhan. but i just don't get it. ok maybe coz i haven't finish my study yet, so that kind of awkward feeling is bothering me. it suppose to be very common already.. yes, almost of them has start working since 2 years ago, why bother waiting right? heheh. and yet, i'm still here, x matured lagi.. man! bila nak habis belajar ni oiii oii!! for a person like me.. no point to get marry now.. no money, no carrier, no property, nothing! and refer to our plan, the late we get marry, the grander ceremony we had. berangan :p.. honestly said, rasa rimas tgk kawan2 kawin, then update kat fb. kenapa ntah nak rimas. jealous ke ape ntah.. huhu i think they're super lucky. envy them actually. well well well, i just want to finish my study. kumpul duit, have a better life.. enjoying what my bf achieve.. looking at the coolest and awesome engineer i have (gedik), then accomplish everything as planned. can't hardly wait :( 

life's getting hard

for god sake.. what an abundance blog i have here.. mcm kalau la blog ni sebuah rumah, dah bersawang dah.. how pity.......... what a life i have now. i mean, i'm turning into a 360 degree of me. unexpected job, but still, i'm not gaining any super awesome thing to happen like other super lucky person out there. feeling down you know. it's tough actually. how can those people say it was so easy and effortless. come on. why miracle haven't come after me? just give me once so i can be super believe in this! nah.. today i surrender, i mean for 1 day of my entire months. i need break. i wanna do things i love. yeah. away from job, away frm kids, away frm boyfriend (definitely he's not here).. i need to give a space for my own self. doing things i want, surfing, reading, pampering self, laying on my bed. what else? shopping? nah.. no budget. it's been a while and i miss my study time already :( i miss my old time in school definitely. no self thinking about money, about what to be in the future. it sucks! school life is full of things i create without think further. just do what we love. being in love, definitely without commitments. it's different. as for now, what we do today is for the sake of what we want to achieve in the future, i mean for the marriage, for the needs. again, it sucks! i wish the road is just easy as i blink. no bumps, no left or right, just straight! everything can happens down the road we go.. college life is about to end. 1 year to go then i'm totally a complete adult. well, most of the friends has turn to adult. lol. they even got married and have kids already. time is fast. can't believe this is our time already. grown up already. teenage life has over. sigh. i miss my teenage life! mr.bf.....

sorry no pics available in current moment.