perfect date ♥

we had our date perfectly well ;) after such fight, we settled it wisely like we always did. don't worry everyone. lovers do fight sometime, in order to strengthen a relationship. agree or not, it is facts. 

so here we are. decided to spend our most precious time at pavi. well said, it's not to shop till drop, but to have a better condition without too much crowd of people. pavi is the best spot. stuck in a jam for almost 2 hours. great. and reached pavi at 7.30pm. enjoy meals at western cuisine makan crispy chicken chop and the crispy sgt la keras. grrr.. 

this is the only pic i have. while stuck in jam. 

look at the face. he just finish it in a second of time. and me? ok.. x habis..

after makan2, i missed all the moments in figure. means that we haven't snap any more pics. shop shop and happily, amir bought me 2 piece of tube dresses at pull&bear, my current fav outlet =) i was too close to shop at forever21 for almost rm250. thank god it didnt happen! sigh. shop at pull&bear was worth it! 

after pavi, on our way back, we drop by at tesco to buy some sort of food for my stay at hostel. milk, junk food for sure, mineral water (a must). thanks b =)

and finalllllyyy... mr bear with new sweater from pull and bear. terus pakaiiii! tada!

ok i had enough. =)

komplikasi cinta

pergaduhan dalam percintaan? oh itu common. tak bergaduh makna nya percintaan tu terlalu mendatar dan agak boring. why so serious? ok. whatever.. kadang-kadang aku penat dengan semua ni. menjaga hati dan dijaga hatinya. tak boleh ke kita selesaikan dengan tolak ansur sesama pihak? ego. aku masih ada egoku dan aku rasa ego itu aku letakkan cukup proportion. senang utk dibuang ego itu tapi senang juga utk letakkan ia di situ selama-lamanya. faham? yes, x perlu kau perah otak untuk faham kerana ianya seperti compact powder. blurgh.

aku selalu anggap coretan permasalahan cinta di blog adalah 'lame'. cinta sesama anda simpanlah sesama anda. maka bila dititip di blog seperti ini, aku anggap ianya public speaking pula. hello.. come on. kenapa buka pekung di dada sendiri? kau rasa ada ke orang nak dengar luahan masalah cinta kau kat sini? yang ada cuma lah stalker yang sibuk mengorek perihal empunya. ah persetankan semua tu for a while. ini untuk kesedaran dan muhasabah diri sahaja.

rumit. semakin rumit. sembilan tahun bukan satu tempoh yang boleh menjamin kita untuk sebuah ikatan perkahwinan. aku percaya. tapi aku tidak jamin semua itu benar. cuma ianya satu kemungkinan sahaja bila cinta ibarat dilanda musim tengkujuh atau kemarau *pon boleh. 

kau anggap aku siapa? kau usulkan aku tak punya perasaan, maka aku ini sebuah patung lah? kau hanya fikir tentang diri dan perasaan kau. berapa kali sudah aku jelaskan. aku masih punya tanggungjawab lain instead kau katakan aku happy berseronok bersama kawan-kawan? kau selfish. kau hanya pentingkan diri sendiri sedangkan kau tak cuba selami kehidupan aku. apa guna nya tempoh sembilan tahun itu? kau sudah lupa? malah kau usulkan aku yang lupakan semua. aku ni apa? terbalik la sayang. aku tak tahu dimana letaknya aku lagi. kau silap jika kau katakan aku lupa tentang semua. kau silap jika kau katakan aku tak pedulikan kau. kau tak tahu seharian aku fikirkanmu. tak mungkin kita boleh luangkan masa bersama-sama setiap hari. ini pun pernah kita bincangkan. tapi mana semua tu? ibarat masuk telinga kiri keluar telinga kanan. kali ini aku memang penat. 

lupakah kau isnin lalu kita sangat happy, tapi hari ini, kau ungkit tentang isnin lalu, tp kau khabarkan aku ianya tak seindah yang seperti aku alami. kau pentingkan diri sendiri. cukuplah. aku sudah penat.

menangis..

*menangis mcm baby ni. ok please laugh :|

things i missed

i'm still awake yet pointless. don't know how to start those assignments and i'm stuck here. and my eyes seems understand, roll roll roll, yes, i'm not sleepy! peliks :p like always, been taking soooo long to update. moooood! mooood! aand surprisingly the mood came at this late hour? sooooooo lame lah jue! :)

i'm looking at this blog and i'm currently feel bored with it. yeah the feeling again, to blot out this blog yay finally! so i'. hoping that tomorrow i still have the mood on. coz this is all about mood. lol. i just wondering why i can't focus on my blog like them. i mean the tough blogger who's like 'my blog is my everything'. 

i need courage. now my courage is on my assignment and what the heck i'm still stuck in here? just finish camwhoring since i never had it like, ages!

yay! i had my long hair finally. and can't hardly wait to cut it again thanks! i have the same hairstyle for almost a year. thinking about to curl it again.

conclusion. i just did the thing that i missed now. a late night, listen to pop and sentimental song, camwhoring while have my brain function to think and write. yes writing. it's been a while since i last write in a proper way i guess. ID course really didn't give me chance to write a lot. now i'l be forcing to write and write. it's a thesis preparation practice. so let's we! em no. let's jue! ;)

current song i'm listening: 

Kristina DeBarge - Future Long

nur arina amin

best tak tajuk jue? just spend a few precious hour with her. finally.. jumpe jgk kite kan ina! she's actually one a close friend of mine in uia. we use to be in a same studio, but i end up became her junior. well, i'm thankful Lord once He gave me the chance to know such a lovely person like her. like seriously, we have a lot in common. cancer girl yay! so she'l be doing her last semester in here, and btw we will be meeting a lot since our studio just side by side yayyy!! 

to ina, good luck in ur final year!! xxxxx

ingat lagi tak bile kite amek gamba ni? yeah lepas spa!! nmpak tak, the look. fresssshhhhness ;)

hope to have more lovely photos with you again. ♥

new sem again. so what?

been feeling like ages. new semester again. and so what?  i feel a bit different yaw. i'm very very serious, that i want to show my true colors in my study. yes. don't want to talk and aim so much coz each and every beginning of new semester, i will talk and swear a crap like this. just look and see. hm.. i really2 wish i can. pray for me.

so back again. hello uia, hello mahallah asiah, hello room, hello studio, hello fellas! i'm sick and terrified with this. will i make it to the end with flying colors? hm.. and yeah, i miss my niece and nephew a lot. its hard to leave them since i've been there with them for like almost 2 months :(

3 semesters to go jue. i'm sick with this.

dear Lord, to you, i believe everything possible. help me. guide me. amin~

just because of the '4 months'?

i think this is pathetic. commit suicide for a broken relationship that stand for 4 months only? well said, nothing can be more precious than that huh? a girl who dumped you or those family, those blood tied you had. silly man.. you totally freak. but deep in my heart, i know, we know, we won't know what was fucking happen to you and what you've gone through, until you chose to jump! you said don't blame your ex for your death. but have you consider that after the death, she will be curse and blaming herself till the end. ok we wont know. she maybe happy you die! but the most important thing is, you just waste your life man, just for a typical girl like that. anyway, i talk much like you will read this. but everyone should take this as a lesson. don't be a stupid fool to die because of a stupid reason. Rest In Peace, Alviss Kong

Source:

http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=181668725179222&id=754228704

http://googoo1ne.blogspot.com/2010/12/rip.html

http://www.ohtidak.com/oh-kisah-bunuh-diri-alviss-kong/

just another babble

i just missed a lot i guess. nah. blog is not everything this so lately. the priority has change. yeah everything's changed. today had a short day out with boyfriend to ecurve for a harry potter show. ok that's worth it waiting. its been almost 3 weeks! cant hardly wait for the death hallow part 2.

thereeeeee... final result has already out and alhamdulillah.. can never ask for more =) so new sem is about to begin. the battle going to be tougher. prepare for the best everyone! we can do it!

huarghh... yawm. lets hit the sack now! nitey~

p/s: song box opening promotion at ecurve rm5 until 16 dec. murah giler. i'v been to! everyone?  =)

xoxo

gossip girl here.. your one and only source into the scandalous life of manhattan's elite.. wah saya ingat. ok looking forward to watch the next episode S04E10 title: gaslit. downloading. eyeah! ape jadi la kat si serena ni. jenny, juliet ngn vanessa the rempit girl that sooo annoying in taking down serena. alah, sekarang je boleh. soon gonna be revealed. generally, gossip girl babeh. tak habis dengan issue. grrr. ok dah siap download. mari tengok!

bibirku sexy part 2

tadi baru gi jumpa my plastic surgeon. menyesal ku suntik bibirku yg sememangnya dah comel.. kecewa..

motif buat superimpose jue? saje, try test tengok, will i look prettier with those pouty lip? of course no. i looked terrible, ugly and not genuine. mintak jauh la suatu hari nanti jue terjebak dgn semua ni. amin~

Bibirku Sexy

suka sangat bila google pasal plastic surgery and celebrity. macam this both combination tak dapat dipisahkan dengan dunia artis especially for ladies. kononnya perfectionist. plastik plastik eyekkk. sometimes one can be better with it but in a contrast, one can be a disaster. disaster ok. hodoh. nowadays dah xtau artis mana lagi yang betul2 natural beauty.

kali ni nak cakap pasal lip augmentation, satu kaedah suntikan utk mencantikkan bibir, biasanya akan nampak muncung atau terjuih sikit. sikit ok lagi. tapi kalau dah tsalah teknik, jadi la mcm ni..

the worst lip augmentation job

still tak faham kenapa orang nak ada bibir terjuih mcm angelina jolie ni. terlintas jgk, ke dia pon guna kaedah ni utk bibir gemok mcm tu. ye la since semua orang dah mula impikan bibir mcm tu. 

ashley simpson

liv tyler. admire her in 'lord of the ring' as arween uthoniel. cantik sgt. see. before pic was better right?

lindsay lohan. buruk giler

megan fox. minat sgt kat 'akaakk'. huahua.. hwtt. but plastic. urghh

nicole kidman. another plasic.

plastik jugaaakkkk. patot la hensem smpai i hampir gile kat u dlu. eh tak2. suka sikit je sbab u blakon drama boys over flower mmg jambu sgt. tapi plastik jgk rupanya..

and finally, queen of bad plastic surgery. rasanya semua benda dia dah tuka kot. jocelyn wildenstein, dulu boleh tahan la jgk rupanya. cantik la jgk. sweet je. skarang dah hancur dah muka dia, mcm monster. kesian.. 

-bersyukur lah dengan apa yg kita miliki-

blessed

and i just feel about updating this. i feel blessed ;) the feeling of releasing something that was so rough, so black and dark. i had enough. and i think we had enough. white flag just hit the sky. and all i can see is the bright sunshine. i can feel the air so fresh. i can hear green grass blow by the wind in  a wide field.. calm and peaceful ;)

still awake. dont know what else to do. no idea of watching any interesting movie. i just browse here and there. just watch 'vampires suck' last evening and that was super suck vampire. haha kinda fun. silly movie though. not so good to watch, but ok larr. i'm still waiting for GG season 4 episode 10. they still dont release it yet huh? Juliet with her little army in taking down Serena. lol. goddamn drama. full of conflicts. chaotic. hope they will fail in taking down Serena. u go girl!

ok i really need tido. now jue. nite.

i love weekend

coz everyone is cutiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. everyone will be at home. and of  course i can loose myself a little bit. have some space for my own self. yay! so today pagi2 lagi went to mydin USJ for shopping barang rumah =) but a bit kalut with aryan and sara. yang tu lapa, yang ni taknak duduk dlm stroller. haih pening. semua kena rush and rush. alert all, you all gonna face it when you married and have kids. trust me. haih. looking at along condition, i feel scared to have own family. honestly said, we have plenty time for our own self. tu pun dah ada bibik. kalau takde bibik? you answer it.

now i'm home alone. everyone is out to bbq party and i'm not joining coz i wanna rest. period pain plak tu. so no mood to go out and mingle. the pale face shows everything. lol. so nak klua dating pon, amir's out of the city. had working in JB now but i guess he's preparing to get back already. and tomorrow is the day. goin out with him before his semester begin which is on this monday =)

can't wait for tomorrow. let's hit the cinema!

p/s: hey apple tv cool gila! bro in law just bought it

something

since along has back to city. i mean since she move on with her family, aryan n sara here from singapore. i realize that i lose something in life, but i am rewarded with a lot of things. yes, since they are here, i lose a part when i use to hang around with boyfriend so much and even with friends. doesnt mean that i lose it all, but now i got the limits. i just dont understand. its not that along is so strict coz i'm the one who determine it. to choose whether to stay at home or hostel and to choose whether to go out or not. and i choose home and not to go out so frequent. and when at home, i think its my responsibility to take a good care of them, aryan and sara. to monitor the bibik as well. as though, things happen yesterday as i saw bibik was doing something to sara. God knows how it feels. i cant trust her anymore. i cant barely feels like leaving home with sara and her at home alone. beratnya rasa tu. yeah since along start working now. the children just left with bibik and me. and thank God bro in law working at home, but he still cant take his eyes on the children as he has to work and deal with client and lots of meetings. ok, weird huh. meeting semua through phone and internet. just me and the children. i cant even imagine when my semester begin. how about the two of them. sedih sgt tgk bibik push sara macam yesterday. and i really2 shock and yell at her, 'mia, kamu buat ape tu?!!' and dengan berlakonnya, dia cakap, '(sambil ketawa) geram sara ni comel'. kepala hotak kau. aku nampak kau penyek pipi dia sambil dia isap puting. agak2 la. sambil henjut buaian kuat2 tekan atas perut die. kesian sara.. she's just 3 months. how could she understand. i cant take care of both since i have to look for aryan. hm.. dah bagitau along pasal ni.. she said she will seat back and talk to bibik. dia ingat dia boleh pijak kpale kite. kau dah untung sgt dapat majikan mcm kitrg ni. sumpah sgt marah.

and that's it. the huge responsibility that i hold. tengok the children membesar. kadang2 marah juga kat aryan sebab dia tak denga. xleh duduk diam. he's so hyper. but i guess he still dont understand. marah pon x guna. later he will understand. ah serba sedikit i feel the feeling of a mother in raising their children. mmg penat, kecewa kalau tgk anak kita x boleh denga cakap. betul. i can really feel it coz they seems like my own children. i really2 love them. because of them, we use to get into fights, i mean me and amir. that was so sad :( i really hope he understand, but i cant ask for that. coz that's what he not suppose to get from me. i feel sorry but i can't fulfill all. for now, i feel so frustrated for everything. i have everything, but i'm losing something huge apart from myself
:(

here i am

blogku bersawang lagi.. since balik kampung hari tu, malas betul nak blogging coz few things to do rather than doing this. last friday, i was working at the curve celebrating the first anniversary of everyone connects. i'm a part of the crew. suddenly there was an emergency call from umi that grandma was very sick and she cant hold any longer. her last breath was at the night too.. she passed away when i was just finish my work at 10pm.. since 2 more days to work, i chose to back off. we went back during the night too. since everyone was so tired, jue, along and bro in law, we keep on switch driver. lol. and there were my turn. i drove from bentong to gua musang. and that was my first time experience, with heavy rain and dark road. macam tak percaya. umi dengan wan terkejut ok........ sampai je rumah mmg terbungkam penat. 

after a short sleep, we went to pay our last visit to grandma.. she looked so tiny and thin :'( i really missed her.. selesai je mandikan and pakai kain kapan, all of us turn by turn saying our last goodbye to her. i kissed her forehead and cheeks. rest in peace grandma.. :'( alfatihah

selesai yg tu, baru la rasa macam tak sangka. hey i was at my hometown! finally... :) walaupun balik dua hari lepas raya haji, kira balik raya jgk la tu. hm.. best sgt dpt makan masakan umi, and kelantan food is the best and marvelous. and there it goes, balik time. rasa macam taknak balik je. but i have to, since ada toddler and baby, aryan and sara to take care of. macam2 jadi kat diorg ni on the way back to KL. aryan muntah, sara slide jatuh kusi. haha. tapi comel sebenarnya. i cant even imagine when the time i have my own babies, once God granted us to have one or even few of children. insyaAllah. :)

now here i am, in my room updating this kinda lame stuff into my blog. i hate blogging anyway. but i have to since i love reading all the post from me. yeah kinda lame as well. but thats the truth. i love it. 

current mood : frustration. 

ok nak tengok vampires suck. mari.

blame it on me

i admit it. things were never seems like before. before, we have lots of time being together and eventually there comes the borderline of it. i have family here and i admit i seems ignoring you, but that doesn't mean i have to lose you. it's just the fact that i want to have you by my side for good and bad. and all i'm asking here is your fully support and your trust. right there you stood still. but what i get is just a tease all the time, you'd always been against me while i admit all was from me, my fault. so, blame it on me. and i've almost forgot when was the last time i burst into tears, but tonight, i did. thanks. :'(

I'm just simply happy

With a pretty nephew and niece, and a cool family, plus best boyfriend i had, i can never ask for more.. Thank u Allah.. :) life's getting better huh jue? Yup! Alhamdulillah..

Currently on our way back to city after such awesome hols in singapore. Cool yaw! Hey along's ipad is so cool. I wish i could own 1, but i couldnt afford to. Tkpe laa.. Paw paw along punye je la next time. Kehkeh. I guess this should be aryan's new toy. Haih budak2 zaman sekarang.. What can we expect, in such single touch world. Semua nak pakai touch touch dah skarang ni. Touch for a necessary need je ok.

Ipad oh ipad. Ur cool man! I guess i should get iphone asap before ipad. Iphone pon tkde lg. Next sem is a sure! Mintak sponsorship dr umi, wan, along, angah, and from my own saving. Yay! That is promising. Loan mudah dan cepat gitu.

Best nyeeeeeeeee. I feel rejuvenated after the tense of study thingy. Like. Seriously. Vacay at singapore, meet new family yang sebaya and gile2 like me make me feel excited and pillow talk (and i was the 1 who fall asleep. Great) was super awesome. I love that since i never had chance like that in my whole life with cuzies. Yeah since almost of our cuzies are not at our round age and thry live apart from us).

Yet i'm pointless already. I just had an awesome vacay! Nnt update gamba once i hit home. Daaaaa

nak jadi duta

bukan duta kecantikan atau duta yun nam hair care, tapi duta APEC seantero asia. duduk kat service residential, hari2 room service datang tuka cadar, cuci rumah, basuh pinggan, doing laundry, travel a lot with first class treat, everything is fully sponsored. bahagia tak hidup? saya pon nak!

jue dah sampai singapore, stay rumah uncle abg nan. saya nk jadi mcm uncle dia! hmm.. jom ke robinson warehouse sale!

merdeka!

alhamdulillah.. sem ni berakhir dgn satu keluhan kepuasan. sem yg penuh cabaran dan buatkan jue nampak di mana letaknya jue dalam bidang ni. perlu asah lagi bakat terpendam seiring dengan ilmu yg masih perlu digali dalam2. yeah! dalam beb. ok la, now i really wanna say it out loud, MERDEKA! we did it kawan-kawan! thanks to our beloved lecturer Madam Norzalifa for always giving her best commitment, raise our spirit when we feel down and pushing us hard through the semester and we manage to reach your target. so much input we had with you, and not to forget all the fellow lecturers. you all awesome! (jauh beda dgn previous lecturers yg macam *&^%)

so dah merdeka dah sebelum masuk chapter baru. next sem punya project, museum and hotel. let's rock bali! nak research dari sekarang, boleh? huhu! ok la i'm off to singapore with aryan and sara. baibai ;)

make me into 3

good morning! its 8:25 in the morning. and i'm still awake working on CAD drawing and right now, blogging. have a break for a while lah. eh jue still working on her work? nahhhh, work can never finish. i wish i'm a rich man wife, goyang kaki at home, doing shopping stuff a lot, travel all over the world, and having a perfect life with husband. ok that's every girls dream lah. i can never wish for that, i only pray that he can be the rich man i want. insyaAllah he will coz i believe in him.

i always stuck in the middle. i wanted to hang around with friends, have a date with boyfriend, spend my quality time with family, especially with aryan and sara. how can i afford to commit everything in a plenty of time. oh i wish i can replicate myself into 3 so that i can make everyone happy.

as a girlfriend of a person, you know, you have limits in everything. its not that i'm asking for freedom, but i know my limits in mingle with people. yeah, it's been 9 years and i know how to take care of myself to the limit that i create myself. but sometime, relationship might somehow affected with what we already rule. i mean the limits that we create. ah its complicated. i really wanted to satisfy everyone, but you can only have one juhairah, the girl who always taking care of others first rather than herself. i hope you can bear with it, but today we end up quarrelling again, and believe me, i felt so pissed off than you can ever imagine. a serious heartache. 

i wanted to hang around with friends. i really2 wanted to spend a lot of time with boyfriend and family. how i wish for that. its a life baby. now, please replicate me.

bibbidip bibbidip boo.. tada! oh gagal me'replicate. jadi la seorang jue. yada~

little missy sara

ni gambar pasport sara :D

comel kan die? sebijik macam muka mummy die masa kecik

comel sangat sara ni.. sumpah geram nk penyek penyek!

suka bau baby sara!

esok lusa sara nak gi singapore, cik jue nak join. mari!! 

sedih plak tak dapat join 5belas kat taylor. camne ni..

MSID or singapore? hmmmmmmm

kehidupan harian saya

i realize that after the studio submission, i havent blog! apa dah jadi! culture shock utk enjoy my quality time to rest as much as i can, mind and body. and even so lazy to solve for a simple question! otak jadi malas berfikir. padahal ada 1 lagi submission. wake up jue! move ur lazy ass to do ur work!

a routine with my family. that's all. wake up in the morning (sometimes terbabas jgk), breakfast, taking care of nephew and niece instead of monitor the bibik, watch tv, sometimes went out with aryan n amir and old friends, makan, surfing, sorority life, that's it.

my family were here since last 3 days and just got back this morning. i missed them :( semalam had a night out for a movie, even no excititing movie at a moment. RED, Retired Extremely Dangerous, like, seriously, motif kau buat citer tu?? instead of humor, the storyline is like xde motif. huhu. but ok la, it's funny movie but the action element sgt baguuuussss. ok that was at night. the day was totally hectic, it's ayik's wedding at pusat komuniti, damansara heights, and i was to perform a song, ok, 3 songs actually. i was so relief after such a kalut moment, i did it well. and everyone was like saying, 'sedap la suare', 'nak sign?'. semua orang penat sebab keep their eyes on aryan. he was soooo hyper. penat.

heeeyy, iklan penaja, cerita 'chinta' kat tv3 best gilerrrr.. i finally finish watching all the series (1-24) at www.tv3.com.my. tak tido youuuu utk habiskan all the series. everyone, tgk la citer tu. fasha sandha pandai sgt berlakon. tak saba nak tunggu the next episode this evening. petang ni mesti tgk ;)

fanatiknya penyokong pasukan kelantan

saya selaku rakyat kelantan amatlah terasa akan fenomena ini. even my own brother yg kat kelantan tu pon nk datang sini nak tgk perlawanan bola tu. dia datang konvoi dgn kawan2 dia. gila semangat x semangat nya ore klate ni. tu baru my brother, x masuk orang lain lg. sumber dr dia, kat stadium klate hari ni, 5 ribu tiket habis terjual and orang dtg beratur kat stadium dr pukul 7 pagi lagi even stadium buka pukul 9. dahsyat x dahsyat. semangat pok2 klate kitooo.. 

smangat, smangat juga ye. tp saya merayu la kat penyokong klate ni, jgn la buat hal mcm tahun lepas lg. malu kapong kito. kami orang2 yg educated sgt terasa tempias nya. sbab jue yakin, yg buat hal ni mesti org yg x guna akal. fikirkan lah ye. kesian yg pandai2 ni terkena tempiasnya. terkilan sgt bila baca artikel dari bloggers mcm dekat ohbulan. bukan terkilan dgn artikel nya, tpi dengan 572 (setakat ini) komen dri masyarakat. terlalu racist. terlalu.. argh. sedih sgt baca.. :( 

and kepada yg datang dari kelantan utk perlawanan ni, pandu berhati2. jangey duk galok jah. 

GOMO KELATE GOMO! =)

...

pernah tak bila anonymous call, kau pick up, dia tanya kau sape? sumpah rasa macam nak lempang. dah la call no aku, pastu kau tanya plak sape aku. lempang kang. huhu

iklan penaja.

saya hari ni melaporkan dari armanee condo, nak turun beriadah, memandangkan aryan fahim sedang lena dibuai mimpi. melaporkan lagi dari sini, 3d model saya masih belum siap, andai saya di review lagi hari jumaat ni, mmg naya sbab xde 3d perspective. dengan ini saya berjanji, malam ini saya akan berusaha menyiapkannya.

ok nak gi swim dah. bye

berserah

give up? belum lg. but i know it's way too impossible to finish it all. but i keep on working on it. whether i have the time or not, i won't give up until the day come. i need to fight for it.

sedih sebab fikir all sorts of thing. kalau siap by tonight pon, printing shop mane yg buka tgh2 malam kan..
oh cabaran budak ID. penat tau jadi budak ID :(

sekarang. boleh faham x, kenapa saya sangat penat? :(

comel kan dia?

anak buah jue yg kedua a.k.a adik aryan.

missy sara dah 2 bulan! ;)
minah ni nangis kuat gila
tapi gewam! so girlyyyy baby. heee ♥ sara

age and future planning

hari ni duduk rumah je 'yay!'. serious lagaknya macam seorang late teenager yg sangat tkde life! eh jap, am i still a teenager? oh no no.. rasa mcm dah xde term teenager dah utk diri sendiri. tua nya saya! but actually, i'm still a teenager la kot, yes, late teen! so when is the time when i'l be fully adult? oh lepas dah grad and kerja la kot. maybe i'm now a young adult la kot. betol la kot. wow! late teen and young adult. great. semua 'kot' sebab xde facts about this. i think that would depends on a person. 

kalau dah umur 30 tp act mcm budak darjah 6 camne plak? itu ok kot, maybe dia seorang yg ceria wow! tp kalau umur 30 but think like 12 years old kid, yg ni mmg totally problem n patut elakkan diri dri orang camni. kalau x, hidup nak gaduh je. jue plak? oh i'm 23 and i act like 23 years old lady and i think like a 26 years old lady. seimbang la tu kot. pandai2 je aku. ape ku kesah. 

knape fikir mcm org 26? kenapa x 27 ke, 28 ke, 25 ke? ntah la. i think 26 is my best year to get marry. and what i have now is all the plan of my life, our life. masa umur 26, i'm an employee, a person in servicing an interior design work who is planning for her marriage with her boyfriend and planning on to have how many kids in the future. at that moment, i would own properties. and at that time, my sister is already a senior architect and we are planning on establishing our own firm, more to family's firm. architect dah ade, accountant dah ade, IT engineer dah ade. engineer soon, we gonna have 2 engineers :) lawyer je xde.

overall, i aspect a better life in the future. siapa yg xnak kan? all is just a plan. the rest, i leave to Him. amin.

sempat lagii

sempat lagi ni nak update blog ni. juhairah ooiiii! hari ni hari plg ngeri. walaupun jue byk gile lg x siap ni, board, layout yg x fully confirmed, blow up xde. 3d yg x wujud lg! submit jumaat ni wehhh! ok 'walaupun' tadi, sempat lagi jue gi jalan tar bershopping dgn my parent. well done jue. mula2 pagi tu, ckp kat umi, 'kakak bz, x boleh hantar wan gi pwtc ni'.. aah, ayahanda ku mmg slalu dtg perhimpunan agung umno. ok baiklah.. last2 mcm x smpai nye hati, 'ok la kakak hantar la wan.' umi pon ikot same. end up gi makan kat kg baru plus gi jalan tar. balik rumah pukul brape anak murid? pukul 7.30 mlm. yaaayyy!!

bagus jgk sbena nye klua dari my stressed zone. yg penting, external review nanti saya pakai baju dgn selendang baru. yay! thank u umi ;)

mari sambung kerja!!

hari selasa

good morning! tido 3 jam dimanfaatkan sepenuhnya. argh. x saba tunggu semua ni habis. kerja yg memualkan. sedih. langsung tiada masa untuk amir :( n now rasa jauh sangat dengan dia, since he lost his handphone semalam. kesian my bear.. dah takde handphone kesayangan dia tu. rasa sedih sebab dia jaga hp tu very well tapi kali ni dia lalai. tertinggal kat mane ntah, orang terjumpa, dia curi :( takpe la b, jom beli iphone 4 same2 bulan 12 ni ok. hmm

kamon jue! you can do it! mari sambung bekerja!

i miss him..

70%

well said, if u noticed, i have blogging problem lately. pendek giler entry. and as for me, its way too boring to read. mcm la tulis panjang2 x boring kan? yeah whatever, its my blog anyway. i write, i read it frequently. not for u, but for only me. but if u insist to read, u can go on. no one restrict u from doing that.

arina, maybe yg ni boleh jdi entry panjang, tp xkan jadi sepanjang ina punye ok. will never ever. x reti la bebel2. juhairah, mmg x pandai ckp byk. unless with the person she used to, she comfortable with. i'm more to observing.

nak dijadikan ceritanya, semalam mcm biasa, malam isnin biasanya mlm yg stress dlm senarai 7 hari. kononnya berazam utk tidak on fb. yeah i did it. but i end up sleeping like a princess on my comfy bed. great. b, betol la b, 30% kerja, 70% fb. but only if i'm fbing. but last nite i hadnt. so i replaced the 70% with sleeping. yada!

em.. tadi kena tegur ngn studiomate. muka kau kenapa? em.. em.. malu weh. biase la. time2 tertekan macam sekarang, tgn akan gatal menggores muka. kalau masuk contest gores dan menang, mesti dpt menang moto dah. aryan pon macam memahami. tambah2 lagi sekarang dah pandai pinch orang. sumpah sakit. tgn dah la kecik, dia pinch kecik punya. pecah darah pipi jue ok! and sekarang tgh berkuping. jgn xtau, im not the only victim, mangsa penderaan aryan. hahaha. his dad, his mummy pon ada kuping kt muka skarang ni. n bibik lebam kat lengan kena gigit ngn aryan. aryaaaaaaaannnn! hahahahahaa.. ketawa geli hati. betul jgk ckp abg nan, tu laa.. masa aryan kecik dlu, panggil lagi monster. mmg skarang da jadi monster. adoi.

hm.. knape x panjang2 jugak entry ni. dah xtau nk ckp ape. ok babai.

menyampah?

tiba2 tgk blog sendiri rasa macam nak delete. sumpah. oh minggu yg paling stress akan bermula dari sekarang. nk cepat habis, tp byk lg x siap. damn. jumaat oh jumaat. :(

aryan fahim

my beloved nephew

the 2 years old aryan fahim ♥

terbaik

dalam sekali sahaja seumur hidup ini..

izinkan saya

jadi terbaik di antara yg terbaik dalam bidang pelajaran yg saya ceburi

sekali pon cukuplah..

apa yang penting?

usaha dan kesabaran

all the best jue~

cerita tentang kawan sejati

mereka susah senang sama-sama
bila seorang jatuh, seorang lagi hulurkan tangan utk bangkit sama-sama, berdiri di atas bumi yg nyata. kembali
bila seorang jatuh, seorang lagi cuba hulurkan tangan, tp takdir tak dapat mengubah apa-apa
tapi mungkin takdir tentukan yg jatuh tu dengan sesuatu
mungkin, takdir

ya, bagiku, mereka dua sahabat sejati
aku salute, aku touched

aku doakan yg terbaik utk kau.
perlu jadi kuat
even bukan rezekimu di situ, Tuhan maha adil, dia janjikan kau rezeki lain
hold on and keep going
insyaAllah. kau bukan berseorang.

masalah perasaan

kau, kau, kau, dan kau lagi. semuanya tak faham kondisi aku. walaupun tak faham dan kau rasa kau tak mampu buat aku tenang, jangan kau tambah beban kerja aku. aku tertekan.

oh aku hampir give up dan mahu tidur. syukur masih ada sedikit kekuatan. bertahan jue. dua minggu sahaja lagi.

tragedi 10 oktober

sepanjang semalam, byk tgk status org kt fb, tarikh yg cantik gtu. ok knape perlu begitu obses. hm.. rupanya dlm kita bergembira, ada yg merintih dgn tarikh ni. hari ni, khabar tentang kemalangan maut yg meragut 12 nyawa di seremban betul2 menyentap hati jue :( pagi2 lagi umi call bertanyakan pasal ni, jue ingatkan tak la serius sgt, tp terdetik di hati utk google. masyaallah.. :(

tgk update2 saudara kat twitter especially. jue cuba cari gambar tu kat facebook. n ada kenyataan dari saksi yg x dapat kita jumpa di surat khabar mungkin? thanks to cik aina. jue jmpe link ni.

xnak ulas apa2. cuma, ambil iktibar dari kemalangan ni. nauzubillah..

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=89035&id=1147144865

al-fatihah..

BlackBerak

alkisahnya, 3 bulan lepas, abg ipar jue beli la blackberry since die ni gadget freak, n now mcm fenomena orang either pakai blackberry or iphone. dia pon nk try la jugak best ke x blackberry instead of duk condemn je this brand memanjang kan. mentang2 la pakai iphone je. haha.. since dia slalu outstation to singapore, terbelilah dia blackberry curve costed around 250SGD. patot laaa, murah kot. malangnya, dia tertinggal kotak blackberry dlm bas otw back to KL. haha lagi skali. sehari dua duk explore BB, akhirnya tersadai la BB ni kat rumah selama 3 bulan. dia guna wat function as alarm dia je. wakaka.

so last friday, jue mcm tengok, kesian nye la BB ni, since bateri hp jue masa tu tgh low, and jue rushing2 to class, ah pinjam la jap hp 'macam best' ni. oh bermula lah kisah jue dgn blackberry ni. *fakta: jue pernah nk gila2 pakai BB masa awal2 tahun ni. skarang dah x langsung*. ok nak cakap betul la kan, knape susah sangat nak tekan keypad die ni?? nak patah dah jari tekan. damn! now i really confirm it. i'm not meant with u BB. ke sbab ni BB cap ayam? haha.

Blackberry ke Blackberak?

ok. over. tau tu. 

Dear Aryan, Happy Birthday!

it's 9 october again!

for the 2nd time.

aryan is 2 years old now

sweet 2 my dear aryan!

owh.. what a small number.

ur so young and healthy

and pretty (oh no ur a boy)

a baby!

dear aryan, happy birthday.. cik jue loves you so much!

malas

sumpah mmg malas nk balik uia. fobia pon ada. balik je stress. argh! knape la mesti ade rumah kat KL ni. i mean, rumah my sis. heh. salahkan rumah plak. sbab nye kan, slalu kena pindah pindah barang. lepas tu tercicir sana sini. tu x masuk part rumah kat kelantan lagi. aduyai. skarang even barang2 projek pon dah ada kat rumah. so, argh. malas nya! esok nk ponteng kelas lg. dont u dare forcing me. i will put my damn ass still! still! faham? thanks!

juhairah

saya tak punya ramai kawan. saya tak pandai berkawan. saya obses memandu. saya menangis bila terlalu marah. saya bercakap dengan lemah lembuh sampai orang suka ejek. saya manja. saya diam bila marah. saya terlalu banyak berfikir. saya ada boyfriend yang setia, begitu juga saya memang setia. saya tak romantik, tapi saya comel. saya selalu cepat lupa, dan saya risau. saya dalam dunia saya yang tersendiri. saya unik. saya sukakan ketenangan. bagi saya, pantai sangat indah, terlalu indah. saya suka mengalah bila tertekan dengan sesuatu keadaan. saya jadi diam bila rasa tak ngam dengan sesebuah komuniti. saya keras hati. saya gigih tapi kadang-kadang saya pasif. saya lah yang berbintang cancer.

juhairah, terlalu banyak sifat negatif berbanding positif. ah, biarkan. saya suka begini.

hantu ada twitter ke?

semalam tido lambat, bgn pagi plak awal kan. sbab nak gi majlis konvo my friends kt uia *excited terlebih. bangun je tengok cermin, muka pucat lesi sbab x cukup tido. langsung pos kat twitter. pastu dapat respon dari malaun indonesia mane ntah. adoi. cuak ok. tp hantu ade twitter ke? damn~

bace caption dia, creepy. man, ur freak.

x suke nuffnang lagi

hari ni dapat email dr nuffnang. i guess all of u pon dapat jugak, coz its general reminder. click fraud segala kan. hari tu dah kena. nuffnang tarik my earn almost RM250.

tadi email dr nuffnang, to warn all the bloggers for not doing such thing. at least we all support u nuffnang. ok la. xde hati dah pon nak serve u lagi. naik menyampah. too much rules.

now my intention in blogging has back to normal. my blog, my stuffs. not urs anymore. i dont belong to u. daaaa

weekend with mia

aryan n sara pergi ipoh, so tinggal jue dengan bibik je kat rumah. hoh. will be spending time with her until tomorrow. hari ni nak bawak bibik gi cari selipar katanya. semalam layan tgk movie marathon dgn die, siap citer hantu lg. adoih. hari ni terbabas tido smpai pukul 11 pagi.. plan lari sumeeee.. nk g swim, g print la ape la kan. end up hari ni stay rumah lg la hadap autocad. esok baru bleh gi print :( jawabnye hari ni x dpt buat model project lagiiii.. siapkan autocad dlu la mek jueeee.. section sectionnnnn :(

steal time!

i steal time coz i had enough in a moment! ok take 5 *padahal semalam aku tido tak hengat je. pagi ni dah gelabah balik to catch all the left work. mati.

what i did just now:

-print gambar beijing

-join along clear up her wardrobe

-fashion show with along lalalala gila

-jenguk sara

-makan spagetti with aryan

-chat kt ym n fb chat with few frens. btw thanx for buzzing!

-tengok kiri and kanan

ok back to work.


p/s dont u ever dare made silly joke with me. ive no time for now. later boleh. off

major stress

the major stress has in. way to go jue. a burden of workloads. this monday will be our 2nd crit and i guess should be our toughest time before the time it happen. wednesday, thursday, friday, saturday, sunday. i'l feel like hell. god save me.. :(

jue into owl

after several times, jue rasa jue suka burung hantu a.k.a owl la. 

1. suka sangat denga lagu-lagu owl city. best sangatt =)

2. suka berjaga malam di kala detik2 submission, maknanya mcm burung hantu la

3. suka accessory owl jgk

4. nak giler2 tgk 'Legend of the Guardians: The Owls of Ga'Hoole'. semalam dah book tiket nk tgk, tp ade orang tu made silly thing. gah. xnk citer.

i think owl's so cool.

cantik kan owls =)

lagii, cuteee

yg ni comel giler. huahuaa. funnnaayhh

photo source: google

ps: makin bosan dengan rabbit. aaaa

pembunuh

dunia sekarang dah tak aman. bunuh sana bunuh sini. terbaru semestinya isu hangat yang menggemparkan satu malaysia, kes bunuh berprofil tinggi sosilawati. senangnya manusia bunuh sesama manusia kan? kejam pulak tu :(

tadi semasa memandu, terdetik di hati, alangkah malangnya orang yang terserempak dengan orang jahat. kita tau orang jahat ada di mana-mana je. dan dengan izin Tuhan, everything can happen. terasa begitu bersyukur kerana jue rasakan Dia selalu ada utk lindungi jue terutamanya jika jue memandu berseorangan. 

mcm yang kita byk dengar kat news, kes bunuh dan rogol perempuan banyak bermula dari jalan raya dan kenderaan itu sendiri. ingat lagi tak, kes nurul huda, canny ong dan noor suzaily mokhtar. Tuhan saja yg tau mcm mana mereka menderita sebelum menemui ajalnya :(

dunia sekarang, penuh dengan lelaki durjana, yg Tuhan ciptakan untuk lindungi kaum lemah, kaum wanita. tapi mereka  khianati amanah itu. entah syaitan apa lah yg ada dalam mereka. ya, lemah iman serta hilang pedoman, itulah kuncinya. takut.. kepada kaum-kaum sejenis ku, kaum perempuan, berhati-hatilah. sama-sama kita ingat mengingati.

good night~

always loving him no matter what

still remember the day he came all the way long from kota bharu to KL just in case to send me to LCCT for my departure to Tianjin, China. didn't even expect he's gonna be that worried. and eventually i was kinda happy =) over the time we've spend together before that, he kept reminding me do's and don't's. and that's so sweet. until the time i checked in. he send me until i cant be seen anymore :( he even lend me his cell phone to use so called garmin for map. if only i got lost in beijing. *haha so sweet. again. =)

that was the least sweetest thing about him! and i know more sweet things will happen in the future. hihik. as i was in the plane, i kept thinking of him, i mean, is he ok there.. coz he worried so much about me. then i opened his notebook, the movie he told me to watch. yes i did watch it. again, another sweet thing about it. 500 days of summer. that was so sweet about him. i just love him. enough said ♥

blog bersawang

lameeerrr gillllerrrr tak update blog. latest update dengan nuffnang. akhirnya tadi gi cheque deposit since 2 weeks period dapat the cheque. yay! =)

raya has ended, beijing pon dah ended. so what's next? studio la gilerr. mati la jue. hmmmm. saya nk share gambar je. ok bye.

AAD HERITAGE TRIP - BEIJING

13 - 19 SEPTEMBER 2010