boleh jalan da

for ur attention: before work u said payment CASH on the last day working which is yesterday. i finish work, u said cannot make it on time. so delay it to today's morning, u wanna bank in to my account. i've wait until now, evening. none. i ask u again, u said tomorrow come over to office to take the CASH. besides, no more job for me coz i have bad attitude. i'm the one with bad attitude or ur the one with 'cakap x serupa bikin?' eh boleh jalan daaaaaa, yesterday was my last job with u. like i want the job that much. blah. celcom job no good pon. celcom service as well. long live maxis. 

tinggal kenangan

tak saba tunggu iphone 4g dr maxis this coming august. i want it! 

mood: stress dgn celcom staff tak sudah. damn it

cuti dan aryan =)

sejak kerja ni, bila ada je free time so called off day, mesti rasa best sgt! mula plan itu plan ini. plan terbaik, bersantai di rumah disusuli dengan sesi mengemas bilik dan sebagainya. wah suka sgt! kedua best, dapat gi jalan2 x kira spend banyak duit atau tak.

hari ni takde kerja, so byk la plan. bersantai di rumah bersama aryan montel. aaaaaa.. macam nk g OU tp tengah hari je, aryan tido. macam nk g pinggir kota nk ambil baju, tapi macam malas plak. nak mintak dia pos je lah baju tu. 

decided! nak g OU bersantai dgn aryan n papa bear. aryan dah kena ikat kt stroller la, kalau x dia lari sana sini. adoi penat nk kejar. kalau sewa keta sorong pon-pon tu pon dia naik turun kete tu. hyper n ganas betol aryan fahim ni. penat nk kejar. kalau nmpak escalator lagi la. haih. knape budak2 skarang sgt hyper ek? boleh dikatakan besar kemungkinan kandungan DHA dlm susu punca utama budak2 skarang hyper. ye la kot. aryan fahim minum enfagrow A+ !! =)

aryan dalam kete sorong pon-pon. haha.. klua bersantai dgn papa bear. hari ni no kete pon-pon ok. tido dlm stroller jeh. cik jue nk g shopping :p ni gambar last 3 weeks kot. aryan still ngn rambut chicky die. haha. skarang dah tkde. baru potong minggu lepas. macam nk gi keje je rupa nye. tp maintain handsome. jom tgk!

aryan kt barber shop. muke curious n pelik aryan. mcm nk gigit! 

haha tgk rambut die. hahaha! eeeeeeeee... geram aku budak ni.

finally.. 

tada! haha.. masih dengan expression yg sama. cuma rambut dah pendek. hahaha. 

cik jue cik jue, yan cute tak? haih cpat la yan, cik jue nk denga yan cakap laaaaaa =)

aryan ni kalau gi mana2, dlm lift ke, berenti kat kedai mane2 ke, mesti ada makcik2 or kakak nk tego, pastu tanya, 'boy or girl?' adoiii... aunty, kakak, yan dah pakai handsome2 pon still nk tanye boy or girl ke? haha.. muke mcm girl jeh. sian yan. mcm mana la muka adik yan nanti kan. aaaa bulan 8, aryan's company akan klua =)

lame betol x update pasal aryan. rindu aryan x? comel kan dia? 

genius budak ni. sumpah pandai

cik jue ♥ aryan

jom gi OU! papa bear, ktrg dah siap! cepat amek kitorang!

a letter for yanie

my dear yanie,

for the time being, even we're apart, i know ur always there for me, catching every single things happen around me, the sign that you care about me, you never wanna miss every single things i face. you never leave me walking alone, even from far. for me, that's the best thing i have about you. the true meaning of a friendship. you know where you are deep in my heart....

here, i have a confession. i owe you thousands of hugs, millions of words and billions of time, for all the love. and today, i made the biggest sin ever towards you. it's the 3rd day and i was about to notice your birthday just passing by.. i feel so guilty....

22nd of June : i was feeling so sick. fever, horrible cough, dizzy, body ache, went to work at celcom roadshow. did work all alone without other promoter, i was feeling so sick. the night, i went to clinic, and the result i received, low blood pressure plus virus infection. thanks doc. and i was totally forgot about you.. i'm a bad friend =(

23rd of June : still with the roadshow, i was accompanied with a fellow of mine, huda, and we're totally lost in helping the customer to fill in the registration form. so horribly sick while facing a mental disorder boss. and i was totally forgot about you.. i'm a bad friend =(

24th of June : it's the same thing. but we moved to other location. looking for the location and we got lost. everything turns to chaos. and again, the boss wasn't there to monitor us, doing things independently, feeling so stress. thinking of low payment they have offer us, not worth while thinking of the expensive parking fees. damn you. i was so so so so fucking bz. shiyyytttt. and i was totally forgot about you.. i'm a bad friend =(

today, 25th of June 2010, i'm here to present you the simplest 'happy birthday' wish you ever heard in your life. a letter for your birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANIE. your a big girl now. bo la duk takut spider nyo.. must be strong =) i still refuse to say the 'belated' birthday. will definitely not saying those word. for all the love i have, may you always be blessed. you know how much i love you. take a very good care of yourself ok.

love ♥ from malaysia to ireland , 

jue

lagi kerja

hello orang kemaman! uhuhu.. tamat sudah kerja utk hari ni.. this time mcm event kat kelantan, TM 10 million kick challenge. ourdoor and sgt panas. we'r all hotties here!

so dah nk blk hotel dah.. update kejap sebab rasa sgt rajin. malam ni rasa macam nak seludup lappy.

kami enjoy makang kepok lekooooo~

thank you blogspot =)

akhirnya! feature yg dah lama jue tunggu dari blogspot. own design template. aww aww =) lagi cool dr tumblr i guess. thanks blogspot! tgk la tgk la blog saya. suke2 =) layout idaman.

before this, kat 'design' tu ada 'layout' skarang dah up lagi =)

template designer! macam2 ada. graphics provided pon cantik. best laaaaaa =)

tuka tuka pilih pilih. yay! =)

ok lepas dah tuka design. nuffnang kat header and between content automatically hilang. so kena refer kat edit html jgk. mcm biase, sakit mata nak baca coding. pandai2 lah cari ;p

thank you blogspot! takde lagi rasa kecewa dgn layout2 free dr web lain. jom bertuka! =)

cantik juga blog jue ye.. *perasan

cerita pukul 1.30 pagi

aryan tiba2 bangun menangis. tangisan yg luar biasa drpd biasa. aryan nangis x henti, sampai tersedu-sedu.. waktu tu, jue masih berjaga sambil melayan facebook. jue tawarkan along utk buatkan susu aryan. dah siap susu, aryan tolak. ish semua igt aryan sakit.. dia nangis x henti.. x terlintas pula di fikiran tentang benda2 karut, benda2 halus yg datang bertandang..

sejam berlalu.. aryan menangis x henti.. lalu along mula teringat yg semua orang blk lambat malam ni. along blk pukul 10, jue plak pukul 11.30 malam. must be something. lepas tu ape lagi, call my brother. dia ada sorang kawan yg boleh halau benda ni. sebelum tu nak make sure dgn dia betul ke ada benda halus yg kacau aryan.. lepas cakap dgn my brother, baru jue perasan, aryan tgk jue lain.. OMG!!!!!!! dia macam takot sgt nk tgk jue, lepas tu dia tgk surrounding, mcm focus on something that we can't even see. bulu roma jue meremang. benarkah ini?

nak tau betul ke x, along bawa turun aryan tengok tv, dari turun tangga, aryan tgk jue yg berdiri di atas dgn bola matanya yg melilau, sambil menangis, macam takut sgt. hmm meremang lagi. sayup2 dari bawah jue dengar tangisan aryan mula kurang. lalu jue turun, sekali lagi, dia menangis. selepas beberapa lama, tiba2 dia senyap. i called my brother, yes, there are something going on. lepas tu aryan siap boleh gelak2 smbil tgk tv, berani jgk aryan ni ye. siap boleh jalan2 ke hulu ke hilir mcm biase.

------flashback kejadian: jue keluar and back around 11:30 pm. park at my own risk kt guess parking depan blok C near the construction area which is near the bush. and quite far to walk to the lobby. maybe kt situ ada benda halus tersangkut.

mcm sukar nk percaya, tapi jue alami sendiri. sekarang dah susah nak tido. bilik ku dah kembali disimbahi cahaya lampu putih. terasa macam ada orang sedang memerhati. ok jue, kurangkan fantasi. tidurlah.

oh bibik aryan

since her here, everyone's feeling a bit relief. every single job is not a matter anymore. aryan has his own assistant. yes basically aryan's. but she's too hardworking. she does household a lot. she can manage aryan pretty well. she's multifunction, easy to learn. now everyone's love her. even aryan feeling so easy with her. though she's very good in religion. oh bibik aryan..

but the cause and effect is still there. i'm getting lazier than i though. i can't even drop a single finger to clean my messy room. and now i keep asking bibik where the hell did i drop my stuffs. adoii.. oh my external hard disk, where are you..?

saya rindukan ayah..

mcm biasa.. hari ni kerja bear hunt. and it's our last day. it's finally over at 6.30 pm. i drove all alone to damansara damai. right after i park, something caught my attention to detail. it's from hot fm, maybe ulang siaran pagi tdi or before this. there was 1 malay girl calling the dj..

............saya mimpikan ayah berulang-ulang. ayah datang.. saya xtau ayah di mana sekarang. sekarang saya rasa berdosa sgt.. saya rindukan ayah. saya cuba cari ayah, tp saya xtau nk cari di mana. kepada ayah, saya mintak maaf. saya derhaka.. saya menyesal....

perempuan tu menangis teresak-esak.. ya Allah, hati ku sayu.. teringat wan, insan yg seharusnya menjadi yg ke3 dlm hidupku, selepas umi yg pertama dan yg kedua.. bila diingat, kami adk beradik x rapat dengan wan sebab masa kecil wan garang. nescaya kalau buat salah, rotan lah habuan nya. wan sgt tegas dlm mendidik anak2, alasan tidak ada dlm kamus hidupnya. itu tak apa. kerana bila besar, kami lah antara yang menyumbang kepada negara.

itu kisah dulu, bila besar, semua pun berubah.. wan pon dah x segarang dulu. tp dia masih begitu, kurang mesra dgn anak2. byk cerita di sebalik itu yg membuat kan aku lupa utk mencurahkan kasih sayangku utk insan yg bernama ayah. nk sms bertanyakan khabar pun susah. ya Allah aku insaf..

ku tatap tanpa pengamatannya mukanya yg sudah penuh kedut tua itu.. ku cium tangannya yg berurat. hati ku sayu meninggalkan wan menaiki bas pulang ke kota bharu tadi.. saya sayang ayah..

sementara dia masih hidup, sayangilah dia. seburuk manapun dia, dia adalah ayah. pengorbanan seorang  bapa tidak mampu kita selami. hanya dia yg mengetahui...

tiring day

cant hardly wake up to work. but still need force to wake up. aryan demam, sent him n bibik to ttdi, then rushing to sunway for bear hunt job. sedih x even got time to breakfast. and then, work work and work until 5 pm. then rushing to Putra Bus Station with the fucking traffic jam to fetch daddy from sabah having his trip there. reach putra at 5.30. suddenly daddy called the bus from klia will depart at 7. ok. what should i do? went inside The Mall all alone and eat choc stix. pathetic me. went here and there, walk back to bus station asking the night ticket to Kota Bharu bla bla bla. only me can understand this crazy thing. wait and wait for daddy to reach. went to talk to the phone dealer. what phone should i buy. yes, i'm about to buy new phone. argh. wait some more. ok almost 8 pm. i went out from The Mall and park in front the Putra Station. wait and wait. finally daddy reach there at almost 9. tired. drove home. thought of having a fast sleep. but suddenly aryan's fever turn bad. rushing to damansara specialist. wait wait n wait for the doc. what la. private hospital pon bad service. ok aryan dah ok. just a typical fever =) ok now dah sampai rumah. 1.30 am. need rest n sleep. nite.